Why can't I just get over him? He's my first love. He told me he loved me but lied. Our friendship is probably over anyway. He used me and lied to me and I deserve better and I can't let him go! It's been three years since I've felt so empty and alone, he saved me from myself and without him I'm back to feeling that way again. I don't know what to do. I tried to prepare myself for this. But it hurts and I just want it to go away. I want to forget him. I want out of this place that reminds me of him. The memories are haunting me like he's a ghost. And I just want it all to disappear. I want to disappear. Now I want him to suffer and lose everything and regret what he's done to me. How do you let go when you don't want to?